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Last saturday I went to bookstores and i got these 4 books for a cheap price:

1. I got the first 2 books from Periplus @ Plaza Festival Kuningan Jakarta. I just knew that Periplus was giving discount to their books so i took the cheapest books there. The first one is Bloody Times. I don’t really know if this book is a fiction or based on true story but i find it interesting. It’s about Abraham Lincoln’s death. The book is $16.99 but they sold it for $1.5 and plus 30% discount so I got this book for $1.0 hoho. ((worth it to read)) and the other book is a comic (well, i thought it’s a romance novel but it turned out as romance comic) and the price is $0.5 plus 30% discount so it became $0.2 ((so cheap)

2. I went to another bookstore, actually it sells second hand books. I got 2 novels: The davinci code and The summon for $1.25 each. pretty cheap and worth it to buy. 

I do think I’ll try to buy more secondhand books from now on since it’s cheaper and the quality is still good :) 

✖ See Through Blue

✖ Beth Orton

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People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life…

Elizabeth Gilbert in Eat, Pray, Love

Song: “See Through Blue” by Beth Orton

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"There will always be a state , memories, and certain people who had stopped in our hearts and leave footprints on our hearts and we are never the same again as we previously"

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
Marilyn Monroe
Sometimes here, I really feel like there is a God. Even if there is no God, there should at least be something called fate to explain what is happening now. There are times I fell like that

This miraculous coincidence, a great timing, and an exquisite twist.. Perhaps my fate is playing a joke on me right now. 

But, Fate is like shit. Fate is awful. And fate is strong. And it also drives us into a corner, where we can’t do anything. Sometimes, [fate] easily ignores our desperate prayers. Like that, fate is like shit. Like that, fate is awful and strong. 

Fate is cruel like this. Fate pushes me to the edge of a cliff and make sit impossible for me to make a move, then tosses me the ball. In the end, fate is about decisions. Now I have to make a decision. 

Sometimes here, I really feel like there is a God. Even if there is no God, there should at least be something called fate to explain what is happening now. There are times I fell like that

This miraculous coincidence, a great timing, and an exquisite twist.. Perhaps my fate is playing a joke on me right now. 

But, Fate is like shit. Fate is awful. And fate is strong. And it also drives us into a corner, where we can’t do anything. Sometimes, [fate] easily ignores our desperate prayers. Like that, fate is like shit. Like that, fate is awful and strong. 

Fate is cruel like this. Fate pushes me to the edge of a cliff and make sit impossible for me to make a move, then tosses me the ball. In the end, fate is about decisions. Now I have to make a decision. 

The reason why our youth is painful is that it’s all full of unknowns

It’s like the time of taking an exam, when there’s so many blanks that we have no idea what to put. to where my yearning reaches. when i look back at those time, there where no right answers to the blanks. But for some reason, i had a fear of someone holding an answer sheet and grading the papers. and also with a fear of what if i wrote answers different from other people. My 20’s were always a breathless exam time.

I had to put answers in the blanks i had left empty for a long time.

Some people say there are miracles and some people say there’s no such thing. But in moments of urgency, people inevitably pray and wait for a miracle. Thus, miracles need to exist so that in all times of urgency there is some glimmer of hope for people to dwell on. Miracles need to exist

But miracles are miracles because they aren’t common. There are far more misfortunes we don’t think of than miracles we don’t expect. That is the world. Life is too cold and harsh to live believing only in miracles In the end, miracles are a matter of probability. Miracles only exist to one person, and to the 999 others are simply empty talk of that thing they call miracles. Life is too cruel with with its absolute and overwhelming probability. But still, miracles are needed. Rather than the despair of a zero probability that will never come to pass, a ten-million-to-one chance is better. That’s how hope exist

There is only one way to end one-sided love

One-sided love, your heart aches and even if you wrap our mind around it, there’s no other way for an one-sided love, anyway. Whether you get the love or get dumped heartlessly, if you want to end the one-sided love, the only way to do it is through confession. It’s over only after you confront it. 

Of course, there are many one-sided loves that couldn’t be confessed in this world. Those fools, which know how to escape (from one-sided love) but cannot escape. That’s why one-sided love hurts. 

"Last" always passes without realizing it’s the last time. The reason why every "last" in the world is sad might be due to regret that we let it pass without realization.

Farewells are sad and unfamiliar like that. You never get used to saying goodbye. Especially if it might be the last time you say goodbye. Even if it’s a day relationship, it could last heartrending for a long time. 

The last night before I say goodbye to the 20-year-old me. Like that,  we were saying a goodbye that might be the last one. Also, we were having the night of destiny, which maybe the last.